You Matter. I Matter. We ALL Matter.

Someone said something to me a week or so ago that shook me and I’ve been struggling to let it go ever since. I was trying to make the point that in nearly every argument that is out there in the world right now, whether it’s the various topics related to covid-19 or something else, there is science to back it up. In response I was basically told that any idea outside of the scientific consensus should be ignored and I shouldn’t be allowed to even entertain it because it goes against the grain. In other words, I am not allowed to be a free thinker, or allowed to follow other free thinkers. I was in not so many words told that this free thinking is dangerous. That only scientific consensus is real science. If it’s not in mainstream or goes against certain narratives, it’s not true.

I am still working through why this bothered me so much. I think what I decided to title this post explains it though. I think it bothered me so much because I was basically being told that my voice, my opinion and the research I have done to reach the conclusions that I have don’t matter. In other words, it hit my soul as being told that I don’t matter. I was being told that in speaking my truth I am being dangerous. I was being encouraged to be silent. I was being told that because I fit outside the box and do not conform to mainstream opinions and mainstream thought, I and my voice don’t belong. I think it hit wounds that I have from childhood about being told not to share certain things, and I feel it may have even hit wounds that I am unaware of on a soul level – perhaps even from past lives.

I have had to reaffirm to myself this last week that I do matter. That the opinions and thoughts that I have based on the research that I do is valuable and it needs to be shared just as much as this persons opinions, thoughts and research needs to be shared. The silencing of voices in this country, and in this world needs to stop. That is what’s dangerous, in my opinion. We need to hear each other and listen to each other with open minds and open hearts. We need ALL the information, not just what’s in mainstream. We need to stop calling anything outside of the main narrative as “conspiracy theories” and consider all possibilities. It doesn’t mean we need to believe all of them, but I think it’s healthy to consider all of them. We need to stop gas lighting each other and disrespecting each other with terms like that. We need to hear where everyone is coming from and be willing to have our ideas, ideologies and the mainstream story challenged. We need to be able to ask questions and search for answers without ridicule. That is how we move forward and grow as individuals and as a society. That is how truths come out or new ideas are born. That is where the magic lies, is in the questioning and learning and thinking outside the box.

So if you are like me and are out there wanting to have a voice but are nervous to because of old stories and old programs of being told you aren’t good enough, smart enough, and don’t deserve to have a voice, or just that others don’t want you to share your truth so you hesitate, I see you. I value you. I want to hear your thoughts and where you are coming from. I may not agree with you, but I want you to be able to speak your voice. Maybe I will learn from you. Maybe you will teach me something I hadn’t known or hadn’t thought of before. Maybe you will give me a new perspective on something. And if you give me a chance to share maybe I will do the same for you. And maybe we could agree to disagree with love and compassion and realize that we could be fed the exact same information but come to different conclusions. We need to see and honor the individuality in us all. We need to see and honor each other as we are all sacred beings and we are all valuable.

I see you. I love you. Even those who I don’t agree with.