I Pray before i go to sleep every night. And i usually pray again anytime i wake up at night before i fall back asleep. My last prayer before waking up was for God to give me a sign and dreams for clarity on how to move forward with my Life With Training Wheels business (astrology, tarot, herbalism & natural health, meditation, and spirituality).
I woke up angry. I had another dream about war. I woke up because i was screaming so hard in my dream and was one of about 3 still standing in opposition because everyone else had been convinced. I am tired of having dreams of war or epstein or the other evils happening in the world right now. So now, instead of in my dream, I am going to scream here. Because I believe that is the message God gave me through that dream is to convict me with the righteous anger and courage to speak my mind despite whatever judgment may come may way and to be a voice.
I am tired of this world and being told to believe in a God that says that this or that religion is the true one. I am tired of man’s interpretation and manipulation of God’s word in ALL of the religions – especially the main 3 at war right now. All of the books were written by man. Inspired by God and contain messages of truth and love and wisdom, yes. Worth reading, yes, but with incredible discernment. All have pieces that have been manipulated and/or hidden….by man… because it would take away from the actual truth of what & where God is. And all have extra texts written by men after the fact that take away even more from “God’s message” as written in the original texts (Talmud, Scolfield Bible and various texts that interpret the Quran). In fact, I’m not sure I believe in God at all. Not the God that I’m told to in any of these bibles or religious texts. Not in a God that says that killing because someone doesn’t follow or believe in God the same way I do is a good thing. Not in a God that would promote ushering in World War 3 and the end times and massive amounts of destruction and death just so He can save everyone at the last minute. I would never follow a God that asks me to kill or sacrifice – self defend, sure. But to initiate, never.
I do believe in a higher power and creator, but i believe it is more energy than a being. Spirit seems more fitting. I have seen it move in my life, and answer prayers, and work magic in ways that cant be explained by anything else. I have heard his/her/its voice. I have felt the love that i believe a true God would want you to feel. And I believe Jesus was trying to get us to understand this. To understand that the kingdom is within, not outside. That we can create heaven right here. Buddha and the Tao and many traditions around the world had leaders trying to give out this message but the men and leaders of this world and whatever diety they are following have kept it suppressed. Because right now, with all the evil allowed here, it sure seems more like hell. And it seems like hell and evil and suffering is what they are trying to usher in more of.
And that leads me to the people of this world. I can say right now that I feel duped. I voted for Trump. But this is not what I voted for, and I am not currently proud to be an American. No, that doesn’t mean I want to leave, and it certainly doesn’t mean I think Kamala would have been a better choice. It just means I believe it needs to be gutted and began again. I dont understand how people can use these religious texts to justify the killing that is going on and has been going on for a long time. I dont understand how this was partly used (and if you think it wasn’t, I dont think you’ve looked into them enough yet) to distract us from the Epstein files. I dont want to be part of a world organization or a country that knows what is happening in those files, takes part in it and covers it up. Everything from the torture, rape, killing, sacrificing and eating children (some as young as new born), to planning Covid 19, to manipulating DNA and cloning, to financial crimes and figuring out how to live forever through technology, to digital control and ID). And saying its all okay because those of us on the outside are just “goyim” and dont deserve or get the same human dignity that they do and we are too stupid to make any choices about life on our own. And although not all in the epstein files are of this particular group that think of outsiders as “goyim,” a large part are, and the ones that aren’t don’t see a problem with it – because it leads them to more power. And yes, a large part of these people DO control the world through various means and if you dont see that yet, I dont quite know what to tell you. But I do know that the USA tax dollars certainly funds a lot of it. I dont know how it is legal to allow just one country to not have to register as a foreign agent and can buy our politicians. AIPAC should not be allowed to exist in ways that other foreign governments and foreign interest groups are not allowed to. We shouldn’t allow members of congress to have dual citizenship with ANY other countries. Our money should stay here, and take care of our people first and not go around the world. Its disgusting what our money funds and I do not agree to it, nor will I participate in it or continue to be silent about it.
And its not just at the top levels of government and world leaders and organizations. It’s local. Colorado is guilty too. Colorado makes me sick. We are one of the biggest perpetrators of human and sex trafficking. And yes, Epstein had a home here. A bill recently introduced to make stiffer penalties for child sex trafficking was voted no. Thankfully citizens were able to get enough signatures to take it out of their control and bring it to the November ballot. Colorado is currently trying to legalize prostitution. We also have a law on the books that allows for PROBATION ONLY for sexual abuse, including rape, of a child as long as it only happens once. WTF? The way it is written, you can continue to rape children as long as you dont rape the same one twice. And to put the cherry on top of these sorts of things, at least one of the politicians voting no for tougher penalties and yes on more lenient ones currently sits on the school board at one of our public schools!! This is not a society that I want to live in or be a part of. I want to opt out of the world as it currently sits.
Oh and if you didnt know, Ghislane Maxwells father wrote or took part in the creation of most of our school books. Our education system is a joke.
Going back to the world for a second – if 193 out of 195 nations or nation states voted to agree to usher in WEF 2030 Agenda, and one of those things that they say they want is peace everywhere…..then what are we doing with this war??. By the way, Its the Vatican City and the State of Palestine that didnt sign because they don’t have voting rights (because *only* 153 of the 193 nations recognize Palestine as a state – and apparently thats not enough of a majority because its not the “correct” majority)
Oh and that brings me to Muslims and Iran and the “oppression” of their women. I have been watching travel documentaries of Iran (granted, its not political) and have been looking into their culture a little bit. I know they have a recent morality law called the “Hijab and Chastity” law enacted in 2023 with a trial period of 3 years that has severe punishment for women not wearing the hijab appropriately or wearing anything tight fitting or that shows any skin. Did you know that this strict dress code also applies to men. For men they also cant wear tight clothing and can’t expose any part of the body below the chest and above the knees or sleeveless shirts that expose the shoulders. The goal of this terrible morality law is titled “Protection of the Family through Promoting the Culture of Hijab and Chastity.” Ugh! Sounds terrible that a country would want to protect the infiltration of sex and pornography into their culture and promote traditional family values to keep their country, including their women and children safe. I wish our government tried to protect us. Here in Colorado they certainly don’t. I think it is us American and other western women that actually are oppressed. We have let feminism destroy us and our men. Men no longer feel like it is their job to protect women because us women have told them that we don’t want them to, that we don’t need them, that them and their strength is toxic. We have let LGBTQ agendas destroy our children. Instead of encouraging modesty, from all genders, we allow children to be raped, encourage women to work outside the home and teach them young that careers like “Only Fans” is perfectly acceptable and normal. We don’t even know what a woman is. We hardly wear anything at all yet then get mad if someone looks at you with lust. We think abortion is okay because we are so loose with sex. We have become a nation, and largely a world, of whores and pimps who groom and use each other and children. Don’t get my words twisted. I’m not saying I believe Iran’s laws aren’t extreme. And I’m not saying they protect their children better than we do – under their laws girls become women and boys become men at 9 and 15, respectively, because that’s the age of approximate puberty, and therefore that’s the age when the modest dress code starts being enforced. But that also means they can be married or have sex at that age, etc., which I think lends itself to child abuse. I guess what it comes down to though, is who are we to be morality police? We are no better and may in a lot of ways be worse.
What I AM clearly and loudly saying is that the world, as it is, is not one that I want to participate in. I have been struggling with and searching for God so much over this last month. Struggling with my belief system. Struggling with my belief in using astrology and other forms of spirituality. Struggling with the world overall. I’ve been reading bibles and lost scriptures and while I can find bits and pieces contained in those texts that feel like God, for the most part I don’t. For the most part, I read it and I’m disgusted. Or I read it and ask “well, what about the rest of the world?” And as I have been on this search, I have come to understand a few things.
I know God/Spirit/A Oneness & something greater exists. I have felt it. I have seen it move in my life. I know that I am not meant to know everything and asking why will lead me nowhere. I believe that God is within each and every one of us and we all have the potential to know this Love if we choose to seek it. I find God in the beauty and perfection of nature, in laughter and joy, and the love felt in family and friendships. I believe we all do have a special purpose and lessons we need to learn while we are here, and I believe the blueprint to our souls evolution in this human existence is written in the stars and in our birth charts, and I believe that using any tool to bring yourself closer to God and closer to understanding yourself is a useful tool. I believe we do have the power to create Heaven on Earth, and according to all these scriptures and what the astrology is indicating, we do need to completely tear everything down that we have built up over the last 6,000 years and start again in order to find it. We could choose the easy route of going within and seeing where we have let power, greed, hate, and sin walk freely in ourselves and in this world and begin to cast it out. Let God back into our hearts and our systems. But it doesn’t seem like that is the approach our leaders are taking. Individuals are, but not our leaders. They have been found out with the Epstein files how corrupt and devoid of God they are, and although I wish there was another way, I guess at the end of this, I am at peace with this war destroying everything. And by everything, I do mean to include the USA as we know it. All power structures need to be annihilated and we need to revert back to simply living with love. Small, very small, self sustaining communities. Little to no government involvement. No or very limited and mindful use of technology. Unfortunately, I think a political, economic and grid collapse – Great Depression times a lot – is the only thing that will bring this wickedness to an end – and I’m over here trying to figure out how to prepare for that exact thing. All the while, figuring out how to create a new world based on love, reverence, and simple living keeping God/Spirit at the center of every action and every decision I make. I know I will find Heaven here on earth. I am creating it and witnessing it every day. Despite how ugly the world is right now, I am so incredibly grateful that I chose to be here right now and help a new and more beautiful world emerge based on sovereignty and freedom. And I know I will find Heaven after my time here is done. But in the meantime, I am also going to do my part in eradicating the evil out of my own life and using my voice, and trying to eradicate the evil out of my communities as well. In some instances that is in disengaging from the system all together, and in others that is taking a larger stand and having a larger voice.
So the message God spoke on my heart and convicted me of in that dream this morning, was to not be afraid to use my voice. To speak about love and creating Heaven on Earth, and to not be afraid to point out the evil where it exists. And right now that evil is speaking very loudly in this war – on ALL sides!! I stand firm that I do not stand with the USA or anyone else in this war.
I pray that each and everyone of us finds grace, truth and love that only going within and finding God there can give. And recognizing that it will be, feel, and look differently for every single one of us. Because we are all splinters of the divine and we all experience the divine differently. And we are all connected to the same source – everywhere – all religions, all beliefs. The “right” one is the one that is written on your heart and only moves from love. And finding that is the beauty! I am finding my voice and I am finding beauty. And the beauty is found in the God within me – not in the God of this world.
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